I miss you all. I have done lots since my last post
- Went to college!!
- went to Egypt!!
- went to ColdStone's!
- went to the Masjid 100 times!
Ramadan this year was my best Ramadan so far. Even though I wasn't allowed to do i'tikaaf this year. I realized there is a beauty to being by yourself in your room, talking to only Allah, without having to worry about things like, "Is there riyaa' in my intention?" Wallahi, I am only sharing this to tell you that if you are the type of person who spent Ramadan in the masjid and only doing your best ibadah in the masjid, then you should try one night to not go to the masjid the whole day, but to act just as dedicated. See if you can do it.
I loved Misr. It was awesome. I loved it. When I came back, I felt really really nervous...I'm not sure why. I felt more concious of how different I am from, say, my classmates, or my neighbors. I actually felt scared. Then, I realized how friendly people were, and how many Muslims there are here. Yesterday, some time before Maghrib, I went to my Quran class and then my ride called to tell me to wait for her outside the complex. I went out, waiting on the curb. I was standing for maybe 1 minute. And then, immediately, a car with 2 women riding in it stopped for me. One wasn't wearing hijab, and the other had the sort of hijab that slips off every time you move your head. So basically, I didn't recognize them as Muslims, but they were, and they wanted to give me a ride and waited for me till my ride came, and it was soo sweet, and I felt safe. I don't know why I feel the way I do. I have to figure it out.
I want to blog every day, though my classes are getting very challenging. I have to decide my major and I can't decide. I want to go into law really badly, but it wouldn't be halal, or at least would be a doubtful matter, and I can't stop thinking about that. I really really want to go into criminal justice. Insha'Allah, Allah will guide me to that which is best. I stopped watching TV....and began to watch online instead, which is worse, because everything is available. I also got this really bad virus that took over my life for 2 weeks until I took my laptop somewhere to be fixed. Lesson learned: don't watch things online....(think I could do that?)
Let me know what major accomplishments happened in your life recently..
I love Allah (SWT) and ask Him to love meeting us and to forgive our sins, what we are concious of and what we are not. May Allah bless this ummah with honesty and modesty. And may He (Subhanah) enter us into Jannah, for that is our utmost goal. Uhibbukum fi Allah, wassalamu alaikum wa rahamtuAllahi wa barakatuhu