Overall topic: Studying

Peace be upon all of you

I was just contemplating the phrase 'I'm studying' (partly because I shouted it 50 times today whenever a bang/bing/bong/you-name-it went off in the kitchen. I don't know why my family can't live in peace) At what point are we actually studying? Does studying consist of the information going into your head or just a pretend portrayal, an acting of the scene of studying? Because I feel like I never study...oh well, I'm not sure where I was going with this.

The truth is, I am liking school very much. It gives you something productive to do and keeps you on the path of achieving a tangible goal, earning a diploma. How would school be like if they didn't give diplomas? Would anyone show up to school? If that was the way the world worked...if anyone could attend the best university and get that knowledge, but not have the bragging rights or the degree to wave under the noses of others...would anyone seek the knowledge anyways?

I think not, because people only go to schools now to get jobs. I would say I am guilty of this mistake. Because if it wasn't so important to go to school, I would stay at home and do what I do on an average summer. I would do house chores and bake. I would join a soccer team and train professionally. I would go to skate parks every day and just have fun on the ramps. I would eventually save money to build my own skate ramp so that my skirt doesn't always lead to my downfall...literally. I would teach anyone who wanted to know something I knew and I would travel the world. I would learn a new language every year and spend a year in a country that speaks it. Mostly, I would take Islamic seminars and attend all islam-related lectures on things that interest me...and definitely Al Maghrib classes :) I want to work for the Khan Academy and do anything just as long as I'm part of something that great. I guess overall this would be the kind of life I would like to have...if we lived at the time of the prophet (S).

Well, that doesn't make sense because most of these things wouldn't exist...okay, I guess I'm really happy with my life right now because even though I tried to describe my funnest life ever, it sounds really boring. Even the traveling part. I think that's because it's missing family. Life is so sad without family. Speaking of family, they all went to sleep. And tomorrow is a big day insha'Allah. Actually, it's EID! well...just for our MSA. Yes, we celebrate Eid a week before Eid. I can't help but feel we missed the point. We're supposed to work hard in thul-hijjah and celebrate our hard work later. What we are doing is very different...I'm not even sure what it is. Like, what are we celebrating...? Hajj just started.

Well, I'll leave you with some advice, that I'm just copying and pasting from somewhere else. Eat halal Chinese food. It's really good. Oh and study what you love. You have to love it so much that you take extra time to study it more. Because if you are sitting down to work your brain..to do something more difficult than sitting there doing nothing....voluntarily...then masha'Allah, you're pretty motivated...and insha'Allah you're gonna have a great life :)

I don't even know where to start

There has been so much going on. I'm afraid I'm too attached to this world. Because I'm having too much fun.

To begin with, my computer science midterm is next week. And I am freaking out. Like seriously....my studying time is now just making duaa, because studying is useless at this point. Ok that's an exaggeration and I want to teach myself to stop. It's not hard but I just don't get it.

They get you this weird shape ('fractal') and it's like a bunch of boxes or something and they want you to write a code recursively for n=0,1,2,3, etc. My problem is that I overthink and I can't abstract anything. So I sit there thinking about every single step...plus I get oeverwhelmed easily I think. Mainly I just want to understand how it knows where to do the recursion? If we keep bringing it back to the front, then how can it....oh! I just got it! Ya Allah I understand now! I'm going to go solve this problem in my head and then continue this, okay? okay, salam :)

Social Intelligence and My Awkwardness

I can't cross a street. I can't walk with a group of people. I can't just walk into a Peet's and order coffee.

I mean, I can do these things.

But I would get hit by a car, bump into like five guys and three girls (when I put in a conscious effort to avoid the guys), and spill the coffee on my new hijab respectively.

A scholarship essay submitted for castleink.com

I was supposed to write an essay on recycling/reusing/conserving. This is what I wrote.

The greatest hardship human minds face when confronted with finding ways to preserve the planet from pollution and global warming and extra greenhouse gases is how depressing it all seems and inconvenient. The way that some environmental classes are taught discourages young (and old) students from really trying to solve the problem. In a world where everything happens instantaneously (bills are paid online instantaneously and movies show up on screens instantaneously) it is disheartening to think long-term anymore. They are telling the generation of social networking and revolutions and sudden changes to alter the way they are living significantly so they can have a small impact on the globe. The suggestions given to be more environment-conscious are excruciatingly low on return and basically no one can see their impact on the world, which is the hardest type of investment to convince people to make.

     I know that I've had the "What's the point? There's nothing we can do to stop it!" feeling.
Professors that have their facts memorized by heart sit at the front of the class informing us about how bad all our actions are for our planet. Terms are thrown at us: global warming, the end of the world, our future generations, living sustainably, reducing, reusing, and recycling. The students try to think of clever solutions and they witness them get shot down each time. At last, after five 'deja vu's of this scenario, a unanimous conclusion is reached. An end to the world is inevitable; we can only slow it down.
     My point is that this is the wrong attitude to approach the situation; how can you expect to find the motivation to actively reduce your wastes, reuse and keep reusing, and recycle correctly and consistently when you cannot even hope to see the results of your actions?
What works best for me is studying the way these three types of actions impact other people. I feel like it is almost part of our regular disposition to save and gather. I am thinking of hunter-gatherers and how environment-conscientious the whole planet was until humans settled down and shaped the earth to suit them. Of course there is no harm in that, but each human being should be aware of his/her human footprint.
     Our human imprint is our physical impact on the Earth, from a resource perspective. I would like for people to remember me based on my thoughts and ideas, not what car I drove, or how many houses I bought, or how much food I ate. Because our world is materialistic, we care a lot about buying as many things as we can; the concept of why have money if not to spend it? But I think our greatest treat to the world would be living in as much sync and rhythm with the world as possible. The key word here is being conscious, of your actions and habits. I try to never sleep late and if I have work to do, I have to get up at sunrise and do it. Like when I’m writing this right now. That’s because I literally do not want to waste three or four hours of energy from a light bulb when I could be in a pattern with the world of nature. I think it’s a very fine detail, not a huge deal, but it’s important to mix in reducing with your lifestyle. If going green meant going out of your way, you will find it a challenge to remain consistent. Without meaning to, your subconscious will look at reusing as a burden and an added hardship. I always look for more convenient ways to reduce my burden on the environment because this way, I know I can sustain that type of living for a longer time.
                                        10 Unique Ways to Reduce, Reuse, and Recycle:
1. Always write on the front and back of notebook paper.

2. Never ever throw your batteries in the garbage or recycling. Have a drawer for batteries and once a year (or more often than that; I don’t use them as much) take all your used batteries to a battery recycling center.

3. Don’t work at night (unless you have no choice). Wake up early in the morning at sunrise and study/work by the natural light of the sun. It’s a great feeling to see the sunshine brightening gradually and I feel most awake in this situation. It is healthier for you, and lessens the electricity bill, and uses less energy. 

4. If it’s cold, wear heavier clothes rather than turning on the heater. Likewise, when it’s very hot, wear less clothes rather than turning on the air conditioner. Most things environment-friendly are also healthier for us and this is no exception. Air conditioners/heaters do not provide fresh air or ventilation and use a lot of energy and are a big cause for house fires and gas leaks. 

5. Fill your gas tank only up to half full, rather than a full tank every time. This may be inconvenient, but it helps make me aware of how much gas I am using and pushes me to drive through shorter routes and spend less time idling and wasting gas. When I have a full tank, I drive with less conscious. 

6. Ride public transportation. In my eyes, an ideal world would have lots of public transportation, not Hybrids. You can go get a Prius if you want, but there has to be an infrastructure for them if they all hit the road at once. Until that happens, public transportation solves the problem of circling around the mall for an hour looking for parking, or getting lost and wasting more gas. It can also be fun to just ride on a bus or a train with a friend and explore a new place and have fun. 

 7. Never ever throw food away. No matter what. The saddest moment ever is when food spoils. It’s our responsibility to take care of our food and not waste it or leave it out to spoil. Remember that while a minority in the world can eat until they’re full, the majority is hungry. Don’t ever get brainwashed into the ‘It’s just food!’ mentality or the ‘Food Fight!’ attitude. Food saves lives, and without it, people die. If you insist on purchasing more food than you could eat, you should take the remainder and give it to a neighbor or a homeless person. You can never go wrong with giving them food…and don’t tell me you can’t find either of those! 

8. Don’t use things for an extended period at once; Use in moderation so that your belongings last in good condition. Don’t sit down an exhaust one energy source at once. Don’t sit in front of the computer the whole day. Don’t buy a new shirt and be so happy you got it and wear it for like three days. This works really well with my mood and keeps everything working and evenly used. 

9. Do not buy new clothes unless they all fit in one place (ex: your closet). If your clothes are more than your closet can handle, do not buy new clothes until you’ve given some away. Don’t ever allow yourself to keep buying; we purchase items to survive and live decently. 

10. And finally, always remember those in poverty. Go one day without eating any food and when you break your fast, ponder on the quality of your life and appreciate what you have. Go one day without shoes! I’m doing this on my campus and it’s coming this year on April 10, 2012. For one whole day, walk barefoot or with socks on so that you realize how such a simple blessing you have means so much. Don’t buy a million pairs of shoes; if you buy one, give another away.

I read a book in the Seventh Grade that changed my life. In it, the boy (main character) was discussing his personal philosophy and I've been thinking about it ever since. He has a caps on 70 items. He can own 70 items at most. Whenever he wanted to buy something new, he would have to give something away to honor his rule. And so he decided to go without socks in order to get one pen. It is extremely theoretical; but the part that struck me the most was how unlimited the objects we own are. We have everything, don’t we?

A health article about how to burn muscle fat

too much abdominal fat is very dangerous and can increase a woman’s risk for developing breast cancer, cardiovascular disease, diabetes..etc. Change your life style:

You need to get at least 30 minutes of moderate-intensity exercise each day. Calorie-burning activities like walking, running or biking can help you to shed excess belly fat.

Change your diet. Start eating more complex carbohydrates, such as fruits and vegetables, and reduce your intake of simple carbohydrates, such as sugar and white bread, to lose stomach fat.

Reduce your portion sizes. try eating five small meals each day instead of consuming three large ones.

Tone your stomach by doing abdominal exercises. Exercises like abdominal hollowing (drawing in the belly button), pelvic tilts and pelvic lifts can help burn stomach fat.

You need to add nuts to your diet. Foods that are rich in monounsaturated fats can help women get rid of lower belly fat. If you want a health snack that will reduce your midsection, eat a handful of walnuts or almonds. These foods will increase your ability to burn calories while stopping the accumulation of two types of stomach fat common in women.

Keep your insulin levels steady to get rid of belly fat in women. Avoid simple carbohydrates like potatoes, sugar and white flour. These foods may turn stomach fat cells in your body into abdominal fat magnets. Eat whole grains, foods rich in monounsaturated fatty acids (MUFAs) like avocados and olive oil, and healthy snacks to keep your insulin levels stabilized. you need to be optimistic about this article which will provide you step by step you need to burn your stomach fat.
got it from here:
http://www.rickandsteve.co.uk/general/health/how-to-burn-stomach-fat-for-women/

Why I am a Muslim

I have never felt so content with my religion and my choice to live the way I do as right now. I pray that my love and dedication for my religion only grows and increases with every day.

I believe in common sense and logic. I have faith that science aids us in our daily life and makes things clearer and completely understood. That being said, religion helps us even more than anything we can come up with, create, or discover. Religion makes sense. Next time you question God or religion, make sure you think of this: why not?

Im still alive

Oh my God! I can't even say it's been a long time because it's been longer than that. I don't know why there are so many earthquakes happening. I can't understand the Quantam Physics theory. I dont know why I am stressed out all the time even though I am wasting most of my time. Why do I get bored? There should be lots of things to do in life.

I love this term. All my classes are great and amazing. Except one. But that was inevitable. I am getting frightened about all the radiation that undoubtedly now lies in our atmosphere. I think that the world will end sometime soon. All the war, the killing, the earthquakes, the fires, the sadness and corruption and injustice, it's all going to end. But when that ends, so will the goodness and kindness and charity and laughter and love and hope. I think that's why no one wants everything to end. But it will.

Sometimes, I think about all the things in the world that are dangerous and threaten the lengths of our lives. like all the infinite diseases out there and new ones getting discovered each day. All the chemicals, the pollution, the war, the crime, and the suicide. Isn't it a miracle that there are still living people out there? Food for thought.

I told myself I'll go to sleep early and since I haven't had dinner yet, I have to hurry up before midnight. If that happens, I can't reward myself for sleeping early. Bon soir!